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Journal Entry - 6/29/2010


            Jesus’ number one commandment is follow me.  So, I looked up the definition of “follow”.  Here it is:
FOLLOW
-verb (used with object)
1. to come after in sequence, order of time, etc.: The speech follows the dinner.
2. to go or come after; move behind in the same direction: Drive ahead, and I'll follow you.
3. to accept as a guide or leader; accept the authority of or give allegiance to: Many Germans followed Hitler.
4. to conform to, comply with, or act in accordance with; obey: to follow orders; to follow advice.
5. to imitate or copy; use as an exemplar: They follow the latest fads.
6. to move forward along (a road, path, etc.): Follow this road for a mile.
7. to come after as a result or consequence; result from: Reprisals often follow victory.
8. to go after or along with (a person) as companion.
9. to go in pursuit of: to follow an enemy.
10. to try for or attain to: to follow an ideal.
11. to engage in or be concerned with as a pursuit: He followed the sea as his true calling.
12. to watch the movements, progress, or course of: to follow a bird in flight.
13. to watch the development of or keep up with: to follow the news.
14. to keep up with and understand (an argument, story, etc.): Do you follow me?
-verb (used without object)
15. to come next after something else in sequence, order of time, etc.
16. to happen or occur after something else; come next as an event: After the defeat great disorder followed.
17. to attend or serve.
18. to go or come after a person or thing in motion.

            What things have I seen or experienced recently that I think could have been, or must have been God?
            Head to heart knowledge. Through experience. Giving God the credit

            Why do I desire so much to have control?  A perfect example is in my relationship with MCM.  When she doesn’t 100% clarify what is going on, I get frustrated and discouraged.  I cannot possibly be 100% aware of things all the time.  I need to step back, breathe, and let go.  LORD, help me to let go.  Reassure me that I can let go and I will be OK.  You will take care of me.  Help me to trust you.  Help me to give you credit where credit is due.  Help me to realize how much I need you.