I think some (or all) of the reason why I doubt and question Courtney’s love for me is because I doubt and question God’s love for me. How can someone love me? I guess I have this skewed idea of love that is solely based on works. And because I am not and never will be perfect, I don’t see how anyone can love me currently of for an extended period of time. I think Courtney helps me to get a better picture of God’s love, but at the same time I know that she cannot love me unconditionally and perfectly like God says he does. I think it’s good that she reminds me of JC’s love for me, but I can’t depend on her for the love that only God can give. I just have to accept it. So simple and yet so hard.
